Decrescendo

and just as suddenly the suddenness is eased.

The world was crazy

The world still is crazy

People are ignorant and hateful

And loud and they act foolish

And say things they don't mean and things they mean a lot

And mean things with mean intentions

And people stop caring about the suffering in the world

They turn a blind eye and there's so much

Corruption and discrimination and stupidity

But there's you.

There's still you.

And I'll tell you the truth about this morning-

I saw the fire trucks and the cruisers and didn't have any context

For 45 minutes, leaving me to spin horrible hypotheticals

Were we going to be school shooting number 23? 
It's not like it's impossible.

And I was frightened

My mind went to you and I kept just drowning

Granted, you were fine,

But I couldn't know 

And it's stupid but I was scared. 

But you're alright.

In the midst of all this madness, we make sense.

Perhaps it's the one thing that does.

The world, and here is a barrage of cliches,

The world is so dark and you, dear heart,

You bring light to the world always.

Lights are being extinguished in this terrible metaphorical sense

We're blinded and lost in the lack of guidance, the overwhelming despair of it all

And you're so bright and brilliant and stunning and you continue to make sense

Even when we burden each other and come out of it no less unburdened

If I can ever offer you what you have given me

If I can even try

Let me know, darling. Just let me know.

Author's Note

this is Very Raw and so completely disastrous gah