Me

Do not understand
Why people react
As if I am
A strange creature.

For wanting to correct
A genetic mistake
Of being born
In a male’s body
By transitioning
Into a woman’s body.

As long as
I can remember
Have felt
I was trapped within
The wrong body.

Lying to myself
After realizing this difference
Was drawing the wrong attention
From other boys
Whom did not understand
My feminine mannerism.

Never realizing the price
Which would be extracted
From my young soul
For my bold declaration
Of my femininity.

Enduring years of depression
Plunging me
Head first
Onto a wild and dangerous
Roller coaster ride.

With no way to stop it
Except by suicide
That I could see.

Isolated by others
As if
Some diseased animal
Whom was viewed
My mere presence
As a contagious disease carrier
Could infect them
With it.

Silly fools
You can not “catch” suicidal thoughts
By being in my presence.

Rather it’s your attitude
Which worsen my condition
As you make transphobic comments
Thinking they are funny jokes
To be shared
With others.

As I struggle
To regain my footing
Upon the road
Which I walk upon
I realize
How petty and mean
You really are.

And here I am
Wanting to be your friend
Thank you
For sparing me
Further hatred towards me.

Would say “Good-bye”
But you would not hear it
Being spoken to you
Pity.

Reviews

[Frank F. Atanacio]

again a nice rant of a write LOVED it