Escaping Life

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Each day and night

is a constant struggle.

A battle between 

the devastations of consistently being disappointed by 

the truth of the reality in which we exist,

and the fantasies we develop in our minds

to indulge in a paradise which fits our unique mold,

a muse to a deceitful hope 

that some day we may live the life we want.

Exhausted by the f*****g dishonesty we all contribute to,

debilitated from the cruelty we inflict amongst others 

and ourselves,

we are desolate to the lives in which we were given.

So, here I stand,

longing to go to sleep every night.

From the time I awake, I only want to slip away again.

Escape the madness that has become my existence,

and vanish to the place I belong.

It seems as though my life is the fiction tale,

and my dreams are the truth.

I do not want to die,

I just never want to wake up.

Reviews

[TheLostMind]

I can totally relate to this one.. At one or the other point in life, we all will have trouble dealing with what life throws our way. Things get out of hand. We would want to run away.. escaping reality.. Run to the place we love.. Chase our dreams, even when we know that they will come crashing down one day and we will have to accept this harsh reality.

"It seems as though my life is the fiction tale,
and my dreams are the truth." - I wish this was true.

"I do not want to die,
I just never want to wake up." - Oh.. Life will give you a 110V jolt and then suddenly will wake up to f*****g madness.

Good write. Neatly penned :)

[Cindy Marietta]

Thank you so much!! I'm so glad it is relatable, it can definitely take some unexpected turns. I really appreciate the great review!

[TheLostMind]

You are welcome :)

[AaronFreitas]

"Exhausted by the f*****g dishonesty we all contribute to,
debilitated from the cruelty we inflict amongst others
and ourselves, we are desolate to the lives in which we were given."
I love this stanza my friend, so much honesty in these words! Good work I enjoyed this poem :)

[Sameer]

True, a poem questioning exhitance and trying to find something meaningful in living. It's deep good work Amanda

[Cindy Marietta]

Thank you, I'm glad you see it that way! I appreciate your review

[Sameer]

you are welcome

[Owen J Kato]

the last two lines are all true for most in this generation of constant hopeloss(I know that's not a word but it should be).

[Cindy Marietta]

Thanks! Im glad its relatable

[Fist]

It seems you wrote this one whilst a serious crisis was on in your life. Or maybe not, but the quality of the poem is so fine that it makes me believe that. I can almost feel what you want to convey, and i really do like poems which focus on the idea rather than fancy language. Though, Don't mind, I feel that it'd have been better if you made it longer..Because the fun is just a handful lines long..I really wish to see more melancholy poems from you, because you do write well. :-) Best of luck.

[Cindy Marietta]

Thank you so much! i'm so happy you enjoyed them :)

[Fist]

My pleasure. :)

[GONE]

I enjoyed this poem very much. Very powerful. It has a universal appeal, and that makes it very sucessful. Nobody enjoys getting out of bed and leaving their dreams, unless of course you have nightmares. Finding value in our existence can be daunting, but never give up the good fight. You're much more valuable than you could ever imagine. Keep writing.

[Cindy Marietta]

I'm glad you found it relatable, I appreciate your review, Thank you so much!

[Coyote Poetry]

I do understand this poem.
"I do not want to die,
I just never want to wake up."
Hard to move sometime. But we must. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[AlexValkyrie]

This hits me on a personal level. I love it.

I hope you continue to write with this level of power, creativity, and grace.

[Cindy Marietta]

Thanks so much! I really appreciate your review :)

[Anurag]

a very good write... strong..powerful... some of the lines literally stand out.... good one

[Cindy Marietta]

Thank you very much!

[JC]

powerful writing here, hits on some elephants in the room, the battle we face in this age of the real and unreal, how we can become the greatest con but also the greatest connection depending on perception. I can relate to wanting to exist in the realm of dreams, to exist in that comfort...you got me tangled in thought like a Philip K Dick novel, existential, space, what constitutes reality...imagine you created a character that was faced with these mental dilemmas, would be intense...

[Cindy Marietta]

I start to go insane whenever I think too much about this stuff, just kinda makes me go crazy.
read moreI start to go insane whenever I think too much about this stuff, just kinda makes me go crazy.
Thanks Odin