Buried deep

Life isn't always fair

Happiness, caring, delight, and joy people see in my eyes. Ha!

If only it were true.

 Physically I look fine yet people don't see behind the facade, the true me. 

I reside in a hell of my own design.

Forsaken by family friends and all those I held close.

My lost soul forever burning. 

Will I ever leave I always thought. 

Will a bleeding wrist or a bullet really make me leave?

But at what price?

I am alone in my own design. 

Damned with the the pain of life. 

My dark soul blackened by darkness, despair,my longing for death,my life filled with nothing but my own mortal strife. 

The pain spreading to my heart, 

now black as night and still as death it self.

Will the pain ever ease? 

Where will I find redemption of my lies and guilt?

Buried deep in my soul, intensified in my hell.

As time passes, I finally decide I'm willing to pay the price.

With a few drinks later, and a gunshot ill finally be free.

As the gun fires I enter a deep blissful sleep, never to be disturbed 

finally I am at peace...

Author's Note

My fourth poem I choose to write about something more sad and dark. life does not always have a happy ending.

Reviews

[Kaitlynn A. Black]

I'll be honest. There is always a positive path away from a negative room. Sometimes it's hard to find, but it's always there. Life will always be filled with bullies and opressors and those who would wish to dance us around like a puppet on strings, this is unavoidable. Because of that, it's within our own inner beauty and strength that the courage is born to keep living life. It's not about having hope in my opinion, it's about making sure those negative forces realize that their powers no longer have any control over us. While it is true that life isn't always fair. Taking oneself out of the game is the most unfair to everyone. That's how I feel about the topic of your poem. =D

Your poem was able to convey a large amount of emotion and it makes a reading muse upon life's choices. Nice work! =D

XO - Kate

[unspoken_hero]

People die by suicide everyday, the very people that some may see everyday but no one seems to care. I wrote from a very depressed persons point of view and maybe people will see how they feel. I focused on the emotion of it all. I dont want them to read the words I want them to read the meaning and reasoning behind them. And that is why I chose to right this. Thanks for the review.

[Cara]

Life ends with the choices you give it to end, only you can end it with a smile or a tear
That is right life isn’t only about happiness but it isn’t always sad too
Still nice write I enjoyed reading it ^_^
Felt most of it too
great write

[unspoken_hero]

thanks I felt like writing something more dark
im glad you like it

[Cara]

any time ^_^