Worthless.

A Poem by Matt

"How could she ever love me...
When I hate myself?

How can the sun rise everyday?

Rise to take care of the earth even when...

the People on earth are killing it."

Love.

Senseless love.
Something that used to be light in my eyes,
Now, is only heavy on my heart.
Always becoming second best.
Even from the damned very start.

The words that left my mouth...
weren't supposed to be for nothing.
But with few you turned me into what i never wanted to be...
and my very self worth to nothing.

I'm past all the Blame.
I won't even wallow in the shame of another loss.
Wake up every morning and believe,
that life is just a dream.
And every breath is just another nightmare.

I failed from the start.
Only wished I never wanted any of you.
You break this window pain heart of mine.
The story always scarred on my face.
What else could you take from me?

My misery was your gift after you broke my pride in two.
Stripped away my self worth.
It all started because of you.
Whispering Words of wisdom arn't enough to "let it be" anymore.

Sitting thinking. Don't ask whats wrong.
I've begun to believe your words that cut so deep.
Because what am I now?
Just anther worthless thing.
Something no words could define as "valued."

But forget it, I don't care anymore.
Just go to hell and realize.
Im the one you'll never be able to compel.
To take joy in the wind or the beauty in the trees.
Everything just seems black and white.
Good and bad.

Everyday just sinking deeper and deeper...
Everyday farther and farther...
Into the heartless intentions
of the ones you hate to love...

Too tired to feel.


To worthless to care.


Drink till I don't remember.


                  Pop these pills so I don't feel a thing.


      Or any of your words that,

                 sting.