Beacon of Light

Your trust in me lay forged in stone, my heart remain wide open

connecting and knowing, reaching and seeing

beyond a smile, familiar eyes and laughter I know so well.

 

A fragile, wounded soul retreats into cynicism and distrust,

mind numbing rationalizations…..distractions not solutions

isolated and alienated, railing against fate, wallowing in the shadows

acceding to darkness, in search of the most delicate of lights…..

hope.

 

I wish to burn away all the misguided thoughts

brand you with the truth

as the rawness, the vulnerabilities, all lay bare inside of me.

 

My steps fall upon unsure ground

vanishing footprints prevail as I tread

captive to my own reserves, forsaking all

choosing humbly what I desire, not what I deserve.

 

Haunted only by the exception, the unspoken word

reflecting on the past, pondering the future

and all the things which were left unsaid.

Author's Note

Take that power for your own and wield it as a weapon of inner peace. Let the pain transform you into something big, not small.

Reviews

[Kent Rawski]

your opening line is very revealing you have taken and borne your responsibilities to your spouse even to very deep emotional psychological levels. I gather you yourself have been there which helps you in turn to care. This is such a reflective and introspective write

[emmajoy]

' I wish to burn away all the misguided thoughts - brand you with the truth - as the rawness, the vulnerabilities, all lay bare inside of me. '

Seems it is true that what happens emotionally, kind or cruel, must inspire not only acceptance but a touch of wisdom. People, love, experience juggles and juggles feelings til boiling point, one either sinks or swims, loses or wins ... i 'spose.

Your words are put in a strong yet humble manner, Traci.. it's how you are and have been over the years I've read your poetry... must be be the warmest blanket to wrap self into.. must find one.. soon.

[Traci]

Thank you so much for your kind words, and for taking the time to read between the lines.

[Chris]

Few seem to ever be that open with their partner let alone themselves... is it because so many "settle" in their choice of companion or didn't really even consider a companion at all?

[Traci]

Unfortunately that is so true. I believe both examples you've given resonate with some.

[‘Thoughts In Time..]

Amazing- transformation is the key- self inspection and reflection- wonderful🌹

[TL Boehm]

This is truly lovely and gently uplifting

[Traci]

Thank you, and my apologies for such a late reply.

[‘Thoughts In Time..]

Amazing- the depth or the dormant changes that bring peace- what you desire not what you deserve- what we need not want- all in due time- we need to be changed in order to help change- wonderful words once again🌹

[Traci]

Thank you, my friend. Your words and understanding are always a bright light at the end of a dark tunnel.

[‘Thoughts In Time’🌹]

May your light shine bright always- love and blessings🌹

[lightsong]

that's something different from You dear Traci, maybe it's in the same themes and subjects You speak of, but there is something different within this one, I can't really define it, but there is real beauty that shines quietly and steady in the flow of Your words, I felt betrayal, unrequited emotions, confusion because of the answers which are not answers to satisfy a loving faithful uneasy heart, I see acceptance not denial to the situation, accepting the deep wound with the gratitude to the small things You still have from that love, no, not many are able to do this, or to move on, nor anyone would write about a huge amount of pain and a scar that still bleed with a beautiful manner like Your beautiful self did, bless You dear Traci, bless You, for You are a gift for many whom are in need. the title, from You... just so meaningfully amazing, the Light always is within You, always... just search to find it.

[Traci]

Thank you, my friend...you are always such a deep reader; I am glad you see/feel what you do in my writing! The reality of life, my life.

[lightsong]

anytime dear Traci... anytime my lovely friend, it pleases me to gift You anything in my reviews.

[KeeD]

This poem deserves at least a 100 reviews. Writerscafe friends and family wake up and show Traci some love, in turn, read her work and find love and hope in yourself because that's what this sort of writing does, it moves you and makes you feel amazing to be a human.

[Traci]

I'm glad you can relate...I am glad I am not alone. You humble me with your kind words, thanks Kee.

[KeeD]

"choosing humbly what I desire, not what I deserve." This line is so touching, it made me take a second and grasp hold of the compassion this piece shows, this poet makes hope grow in the minds of readers. I honestly can't tell you how lost at sea I feel and words like these are like a lighthouse guiding me back to safer shores.

[Traci]

Thank you so much Kee, your words are humbling. As writers I believe by sharing our word, raw emotions, etc. we help the world slow down and reflect on life and see things in different perspective. Never lose sight of the lighthouse, love.

[KeeD]

Thank you, the lighthouse has lit a path to my future for sure.