Victim

Even though it happened

four years ago now,

I still hurt,

I still bleed,

I still long for closure,

I still search for cement to

fill this whole empty

space left inside my chest.

 

I wish I could go back

in time,

Fix things,

truly cherish every moment.

I want to be better,

I was to find the missing

piece to my puzzle

the minute I think I've

found it is the minute

it slips right through

my brittle finger tips.

 

I find myself

on the verge,

on the edge,

Contemplating jumping.

 

To be free,

to find a solution.

but,

I am a coward

I do not jump

for the uncertainty

of what lies ahead

stops me from taking that leap.

 

Everything I have suffered

is nothing to what these past

four years have been like,

I have never known so much hate,

so much anger,

so much frustration.

 

I have nothing to lose,

I've lost it all,

washed it all away,

Watched it wither away

at my fingertips.

 

I was not directly involved,

just a witness

but the effect

is just the same

 

I am still a victim.

Reviews

[zainul]

The confession may as well be considered as a protest against the objectionable acts of the offenders.
Thanks for sharing your feelings so nicely.
Love the following lines:

"I am a coward
I do not jump
for the uncertainty
of what lies ahead
stops me from taking that leap."

[Fearless Sunshine]

This is so sad yet relatable to me in some ways. There are such powerful words and emotions throughout the piece. Great job!

[Tkess]

In our lives we are all the victim and the culprit. After a relationship we feel like s**t, but we pick ourselves up and go again. If the definition of insanity is doing the same thing expecting different results, when it goes to relationships we are all insane. Wonderful write.

[tk]

so sad and full of despair. it's really hard when time cannot heal those wounds of yesterday, and you still become a victim of everything. i really loved how you crafted this with such powerful emotions. well done! ^^
♥♥♥

[EMMIE]

This is one of the many reasons i love poetry. It's one of the best ways to express our thoughts and feelings and you have def done that in this poem. Great job!!!

[Jeremy Baker]

Harsh, angry and despairing. Great write.

[alexlessah]

I love it.

[stars are far]

This is so greatly done...
It is nice when we know our own mistakes..

[Angie Diane♥&hea..]

I loved this piece. It was powerful. I mean I know how you feel. Eventually everyone becomes a victim of something. Thanks for sharing.

[Coyote Poetry]

A powerful poem. Open the door to questions. I like the flow of the poem and the emotion/feel in the words. Hard to forgive yourself. A strong ending to a excellent poem.
Coyote