He feels none there for me

I felt his penance growing thin

I could not keep him looking long

For me it was an awkward glance

A sense of reality gone by

I felt as if it were my end

As if no hope were to come again

I clicked and fought, and twidled my thumbs

I prayed and hoped and wished so hard

I imagined and sang and created a song

I thought it would all come to pass

I was wrong

He fought for another

A faded petal of his past

To bring back light were I had dimmed it

My breath grew faint, I stumbled and cried

I felt so tired and refused to try

 

And so the set began again, I still pretend to ignore

My eyes will never meet his first

My heart will never soar

My life will always have that scar

That stain I can’t seem to wash out

My heart will always have his tucked away within my chest

He never knew, he never will I know now how I know

I feel the pain it is so real, but still will never know

He doesn’t hide, or lock away the feelings for who he loves

He doesn’t run, he stays and stays

I hide, I feel, I will not share, no one will ever know

But I know he feels none there for me

But I do feel, I feel for all I wanted but could open up to

 

Author's Note

This poem is about the same man as "removing the veil". He will always be the love of my life, and until I can get over him, I can never love again.

Reviews

[Valentine]

This is a deep write you have a couple of typos but the heartfelt message comes through loud and clear..God bless..Valentine

[Asha Raphael]

I still pretend to ignore . . .

oh hon, this is so wonderful . . . i feel it, i know what you are talking about . . your words are so alive!

[Blackbirdsong]

Interesting poem. I really like the story you tell in it as well and the structure was also interesting, even though it wasn't always consistent.

[Forest Green]

Good work Anne...seemed a few words missing at the end, but otherwise nice.

Daniel