Consumed By Judgmental Hate

Consumed By Judgmental Hate

A Story by Do You Feel?
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A question to all who judge and maybe don't even realize that they do, how it impacts and how it damages. Generations before have fought hard to give my generation the benefit of an open mind, yet here we are still judging each other for things that are

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 So I have figured it out, the world hates me because they think I am too religious, but the church hates me because they are too religious... make sense?  Clear as mud?  I thought so...

Here is what I mean...

perfect example, if you are completely and totally yourself people adore you and think so highly of you, they think, "wow that girl has her sh*t together!" but the second you throw in that you read your bible or that you say some prayers or believe in this or in that, all the sudden your friends flee like you got some really bad B.O. or somethin', for real.  And so you think, well, then I will try to fit in with a church somewhere, right?  So you try to go to a church and fit in, and they are all like "hey you can't be here, you got a tattoo, or you got a hole in your tongue"  "you cuss too much, or you don't dress like us", so then the church outcasts you. 

So what is happening then?  I see it like this, the world is much more likely to judge you and hold you to a certain standard if you say "I am a Christian" than if you were to say "I SOOO dont believe in God!", the world also accepts this much less than they do a person who believes in God.  Is it jacked up then to be more accepted as a drug addict than it is to love God?

How come I can come clean about my past history of abusing drugs or being a drunk or a hussy, and the world is all hugs and love, like man, you are so strong for going through that and coming out alive!  The world is so proud of you and welcoming, but then you tell em you got through it all not by your own might but by believing your way out of the mess they all of the sudden jump back like your beliefs are contagious, God forbid they might catch it!!!

So they stand back and guard themselves, they say, "You can believe all you want, just don't push it on me!" As if I am going to feel some unexplainable urge to preach the bible to them out of the clear blue... yeah, no.  It aint like that people, don't you know I got better things to do than look at your life and judge you for who you are and what you believe?  Don't you owe me that same common curtiousy then? 

Guess what there are people out there in this life that do exsist that want what is best for you and not wish to push their own agendas on you.  We can respect your beliefs and agree to disagree just as much as the next heathen or christian, whatever label you want to slap on a person, doesn't really matter but how they live their lives and how they treat you as a person, right?  RIGHT!  So stop judging me for the choices I make, knowing I desire not to judge you for the ones you make.  We are all uniquely different and we believe such vast and different things, why try to label someone or judge them just because you don't happen to like the way they believe.  Does it directly affect you?  If so, I wanna know how... as of this day I have yet to force my beliefs on anyone I love, let alone people I don't know.  I haven't walked a mile in your shoes and you haven't a mile in mine, so lets put the staffs of judgement down and call a truce.  At least consider it, if you claim to be so open minded and non judgemental, then you will really give what I have to say the benefit of the doubt, I might end up freakin surprising you...

Hell, I surprise myself everyday!  Welcome to the insanity plea, leave your shoes at the door and come play and get down and dirty in the things of life that are waiting to be played with like curiousity and love like reckless abandon and laughing like a child. 

My take on life... if you live like a little child you can't go wrong, they love the biggest, they trust the most, they judge the least and they learn the fastest...

My KID taught me EVERYTHING I know...JUDGE THAT!!!

 

© 2008 Do You Feel?


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I encourage you to read my piece titled "Screwtape" I believe you could benefit from it.

Nice to meet you, my name is Imogean and I am a grateful recovering person.

There is no opinion as important as yours of yourself. In fact, it is the only one that truly matters.

I am a Christian and proud of it. I LOVE JESUS! If someone feels the need to judge me, it does not matter. In time, God puts people in our lives that will love us for who we are. God loves us. I congratulate you for being in recovery. Were most non-never-addicts aware of the struggles that the recovering go through they would praise them profusely. But most non-never-addicts are unable to understand the struggles of the recovering person. They dole out uneducated guesses to the addicts reasoning, believing that freedom and sex parties must have been the great motivator... when really, most addicts get high to numb themselves of pain.

I view addiction as possession. You put a material substance into your body and it takes you over, you do things loaded that you would never dream of doing sober. No boundaries and a numbed conscience. Possession. Now some people would view this opinion as religious extremism. But addiction is extreme and addiction is an absence of God and an abundance if evil.

Recovery is not always fun. Life hurts! But I'll tell your from personal experience, that addiction is much more painful. I WOULD RATHER BE DEAD THAN LOADED!

I no longer use drugs therefor, do not refer to myself as an addict anymore. I am not what I did but what I do now. My past cannot destroy me, unless I let it! My worth is based on my own personal opinion of myself and my actions. NOT other peoples!

I may have dropped the addict label but know full well that there is a demon with my name on it and that to avoid death and certain destruction of myself and the ones I love and hold dear, I must abstain. I must allow myself to feel today and all of my tomorrows, even if it hurts.

Posted 11 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.




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I encourage you to read my piece titled "Screwtape" I believe you could benefit from it.

Nice to meet you, my name is Imogean and I am a grateful recovering person.

There is no opinion as important as yours of yourself. In fact, it is the only one that truly matters.

I am a Christian and proud of it. I LOVE JESUS! If someone feels the need to judge me, it does not matter. In time, God puts people in our lives that will love us for who we are. God loves us. I congratulate you for being in recovery. Were most non-never-addicts aware of the struggles that the recovering go through they would praise them profusely. But most non-never-addicts are unable to understand the struggles of the recovering person. They dole out uneducated guesses to the addicts reasoning, believing that freedom and sex parties must have been the great motivator... when really, most addicts get high to numb themselves of pain.

I view addiction as possession. You put a material substance into your body and it takes you over, you do things loaded that you would never dream of doing sober. No boundaries and a numbed conscience. Possession. Now some people would view this opinion as religious extremism. But addiction is extreme and addiction is an absence of God and an abundance if evil.

Recovery is not always fun. Life hurts! But I'll tell your from personal experience, that addiction is much more painful. I WOULD RATHER BE DEAD THAN LOADED!

I no longer use drugs therefor, do not refer to myself as an addict anymore. I am not what I did but what I do now. My past cannot destroy me, unless I let it! My worth is based on my own personal opinion of myself and my actions. NOT other peoples!

I may have dropped the addict label but know full well that there is a demon with my name on it and that to avoid death and certain destruction of myself and the ones I love and hold dear, I must abstain. I must allow myself to feel today and all of my tomorrows, even if it hurts.

Posted 11 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.


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I am just a girl struggling to grow up, to get over her past and learn from it, to look to the future without fear and to live each present day as if it were the most important day in my life. I have.. more..

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