I Do Not Believe in Love

Conceived before my 42nd birthday retreat. It was started during the retreat and finished in the weeks after.

I do not believe in love!

 

Let me rephrase that …

Love is all that exists

 

There is love

And there are the things

That thwart my being

From being … in love

 

Thoughts, feelings, beliefs

Mingle to form a tangled web

That love will not infiltrate

 

Then there is you …

 

I do not believe in love.

 

Let me rephrase that …

I do not believe it’s you

That is the source of my love

 

In moments of excitement

The web will dissipate

And I wrongly believe

That source of stimulation …

Is the love

 

But soon it will all fade

Thoughts, feelings, beliefs

Once again form a web

That love will not penetrate

 

I do believe in love

As it dwells deep within

Shining like a beacon

On a foggy eve

 

Then there is you …

 

Support and guidance

Is all I may ask

For the work that I must do

 

But the work alone I must do

Unraveling this mess that I made

And for you in exchange

I will offer the same

 

Reviews

[Jo Todd]

This is good. Very conflicted, which makes it more real. I wonder if you have to be older to realize you have to start with yourself, before you can deal with anyone else.