Monster

Pantoum-form of Malaysian poetry.

Don't want to feel
All this pain deep inside
Eating my insides
Threatening to expose

All this pain deep inside
Keep it inside
Threatening to expose
The monster inside

Keep it inside
Locked in a cage
The monster inside
Eating away my soul

Locked in a cage
To keep it away
Eating away my soul
Breaking me down

To keep it away
One must be strong
Breaking me down
I'm not strong enough

One must be strong
To keep the pain from showing
I'm not strong enough
Can't keep going

To keep the pain from showing
Wear a mask
Can't keep going
All these lies are showing

Wear a mask
Mine is broken
All these lies are showing
This monster is growing

Mine is broken
The heart in my chest
This monster is growing
Finally showing

The heart in my chest
Is barely glowing
Finally showing
The truth that I am

Is barely glowing
The flame going out
The truth that I am
Will destroy everyone

The flame going out
The blackness exploding
Will destroy everyone
The monster still growing

The blackness exploding
The evil is overflowing
The monster still growing
I can't hold on

The evil is overflowing
The monster taking hold
I can't hold on
It wants to escape

The monster taking hold
Of my ever shrinking soul
It wants to escape
Drinking up the blackness of my insides

Of my ever shrinking soul
It gains power
Drinking up the blackness of my insides
Like great wine

It gains power
Drinking all my fear
Like great wine
It feasts on my insides

Drinking all my fear
Breaking my mask
It feasts on my insides
Almost breaking through

Breaking my mask
Licking my tears
Almost breaking through
The monster is real

Licking my tears
I'm going down
The monster is real
Of course it's real

I'm going down
Don't want to feel
Eating my insides
All the pain is gone