yesterday’s jiffies

i broke this chapters into parts... this is A

 

What did I do?

My words is such a dense boo

It was embarrassing

without even thinking

I look like a fool

A stranger uncool

Regretting my eagerness

Such uneasiness

To ponder to what I gamble

Of yesterday’s jiffies

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Money can’t buy anything. I’m so stupid to realized that too late to think twice. Like they say regrets always comes last. Watching the ocean seems to relief me somehow. This is such a beautiful restaurant. Too bad it will be even beautiful if Cassandra is here. I can’t forget her name, it’s seems like it marked a territory in my heart and mind.

 

In the day she works at a local restaurant as a dishwasher and at night she works here as a waitress in dinner time. This is quite a luxurious hotel and restaurant though quite modest in ambiance its simplistic freshness brings a nice feeling specially the ocean... I’m so thankful my brother chooses this or did he choose this, he usually appoints someone to fix something for me.

 

Love, not sure what it is. But I call it infatuation. It’s a deep sense of feelings for someone or something to me and that’s what I felt right now.

 

“I want her but she doesn’t like me. I need her but she doesn’t want company.”

~sigh!~

 

Now I wonder am I ugly or I’m just too assuming that everyone likes me for my money and status. Seem like I need to learn from her. I need to learn to be ordinary but I ‘am ordinary though my wallet speaks otherwise. I need to learn how people dive in an ordinary life without anything fancy or luxurious. I need to stop acting like a spoiled brat and be an ordinary person with a normal life. Acting simple and modest is like pretending. Or I’ll do it my way, just being myself without overdoing things.

A beautiful view

such magnificence

in ocean’s presence

has touché my essence

a dip

into natures embrace

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Wearing plain cloths seems ordinary, right? Yes or maybe not. Now wondering to myself in this vast ocean. Trailing the sand as the ocean’s arm reaches my foot, washing and draining my worries away. How relaxing. From far beyond I see rocks, from big to too small. They form in an abstract formation which is fascinating.

 

Now heading towards the rocks. Seems like there’s a person sitting on one of those rocks I see. As the view gets closer the figure becomes clearer. It’s a woman looking far in the wide ocean’s view. A familiar feeling brings my heart into a pounding drum. “Oh god is this fate or my mind is playing tricks on me.” It’s not even Saturday, today. My footing becomes a little faster as I head towards her direction. She didn’t notice me getting nearer. As I halt a few meters away from her just to think first what to say and not being hasty like yesterday. Disappointments is written all over her face and the serious emotions embrace her making a shielded aura, despite those I still find her beauty mesmerizing.

 

When will you notice someone like me?

                               The me without the heights of my prestige.

My soul has been touched and robs a part of me.

Now I’m incomplete.

 

Its nerve racking to remember the yesterday’s jiffies… reminding me to be normal and act as natural as possible….

Reviews

[Corset]

oh goodness, already her defenses are up, what is he going to do? What are the odds right? it's fate I tell ya! lol, do carry on please :) oh i see an arrow, nevermind :)

[Pax]

oh i love reading your response dear friend...it always put a smile on my face.... im so grateful to you... the next chapter is up ahead... and i dedicated it to you and to my friend shep below you... thank you very much :)

[Shep]

One of your best chapter ever. Please give me more.

[Pax]

oh, shep that coming from you is awesome already... I'm so so thankful for your push of encouragement... my will be a dead end with out it... grateful always to you...the second part of this is already up...