My Addiction

Please don't be so judgemental as to read the title and think I mean drugs, or anything as such.

My body twists back and forth,

Trying to fight this pain,

As my mind screams,

"You need it!",

and my soul caves in again.

I want to fight it away,

But sadly,I'm addicted

to all this pain and sorrow.

This blackness that unfolds,

And leaves my heart so cold,

This is my addiction,

Lost but not untold.

 

Depression,

How I want you gone.

Depression,

How I need you.

 

This is my addiction,

All I've ever known.

A sadness running deep,

Cold and left alone.

If I could make it go away,

Stop it for a day,

I'm not sure I could survive,

Being so used to this decay.

 

Depression,

How I want you gone.

Depression,

How I need you.

 

Oh, but you leave me so addicted,

Keeping my emotions at bay,

Oh, how I need you just to go on

In the light of this fading day.

I wish you would go away,

But I just can't live without you.

My depression,

Here to stay,

All I really know by day...

 

Depression,

How I want you gone.

Depression,

How I need you...

Author's Note

This poem means much more to me than I know how to say... Please don't judge me for my problems, feedback is all I want...

Reviews

[∂αʌ<..]

aww..depression, something recurrent in my life nowadays...you framed the topic well!
great write!

[Alicia Hirshey]

This is an excellent poem. As someone who suffers from depression i think you covered it well.