If Only...

The perils of living in the past

If only I could digress

     Point of origin to where and when

Making it a point never to transgress

     To that lowly  place again

If only i could replace

     Reflect on where it all began

Memory failing  , attempt to retrace

     That journey from boy to man

If only i were able to unhinge

     The vaults of why and how

Sin's that could make the devil cringe

     Could explain my here and now

Hindsight always blinding me

     With the past in perfect view

A rear view binding in front of me

     Redemption, drastically overdue

Photographic memory, a collage

      Polaroid one step in the wrong direction

Negative image attacks in a barrage 

      With the overexposure of my reflection

Grasping at straws, whilst gasping for air

       Cast in this intrusive masquerade

Force fed  a buffet of flaws, to my despair

       As  I choke  upon the mistakes I've made

If only  I had  chosen to refrain

     Embody  humility  and submission

Infinite knowledge ,  I long to regain

     Thus to enhance  my current position.

IF ONLY...IF ONLY...IF ONLY...

Author's Note

cant wait to hear from you

Reviews

[Jamestown]

I understand that feeling of if only, but I have come to realize, what a huge waste
of time, the past is called the past because it past, I realize if I focus on the now,
I'm working to improve my future. The piece was well done, thanks for sharing and b-blessed

[timthy]

Thank you for your input, and i totally agree..by penning these built up, built in inner recesses of our own sorted past, we can overcome our demons...

[Jamestown]

Awesome, the write itself is killer!

[timthy]

Thanks bruh!!

[timthy]

Thanks bruh!!

[MAD ENGLISHMAN]

This is how I often feel too. Great expressionism. Loved it.