Thoughts way to early in the morning

My thoughts. Not making since. Tired. Lonely Missing him.

I would be lieing if I said if feel a 100% about everything. I try and sit here after a long night of writing and figure out how I feel inside but I still am so confused. Maybe it because school is tomorrow and you know school at a time like this isn't going to be the best... or is going to be? I mean right now all I want to do is sit up and watch T.V, eat, hang out at home and just be a home. Tired of school and I'm not even in school till tomorrow but I really don't want to go. I just wish I could skip all this year and next year and be where I want to be. Somewhere other then here. Somewhere bigger then here with you. Maybe that's why I want these two year that I have left to go by really fast. Not that I don't like high school but I'm ready to start my life. Maybe just maybe it might be with you. I don't know. My mind is so confused. Maybe its because its 7:08 in the morning and have got no sleep and all my feelings are getting mixed up. What I know  right now is that I love you. I really love you. Your the one I think about 24/7 even when I'm at work. I wish I could say everything but I cant right now. Need sleep? I think yes. Thoughts and feelings are all scrabbled. Hopefully sleep will a sure me... but what is there to a sure? hmm... god bed time.