Hospital Room-spoken word

A slightly creepy spoken word poem that I wrote at a writing camp. Not the same when just read, but wanted to post it. :)

I cry and I cry. “YOU CAN’T DO THIS TO ME!” But they didn’t do anything. I did it to myself. And now I’m here. In this curtained room and this hospital grey. “WHY AM I HERE?!” I yell into this empty room. Mother’s face looks at me with tears.

“BUT IT’S NOT ME IT’S YOU!” The voices still go off in my head. “It’ll get better,” they say. “NO IT WON’T! LOOK WHERE I ENDED UP!” Shouting at nothing and hoping someone hears. I’ve driven myself insane.

“Why?!?! someone answer me please!” I know no one is here, but I feel someone is. “Why do you even bother? You’re not good enough.” the kids’ voices still repeat in my head. that’s what got me here. today. In this curtained room and this hospital grey.

            Silence blankets my mind for the first time. No words to confuse my mind and body. Just the flow of my blood and the music in my head.

            This hospital grey in this curtained room is where i don’t belong. But I brought myself here, the ghost of my past life grieves for my new life like he realizes it was better before. Because it was. Because there were no voices there. and i take a deep breath in and let it out, trying to get rid of them.

Author's Note

What do you think I could do to improve this? I would love feedback!