Rock Bottom Regret : Future Wish Fulfilment

Rock Bottom Regret : Future Wish Fulfilment

A Poem by waking-life
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the fall before the wish fulfillment that befell

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Inside Im weeping, outside im drinking
As I keep thinking, my thoughts keep blinking,
Away
My every thought are shades of gray
Inside Im choking, outside Im hoping
As I keep swilling, I keep soaking, in
A sea of Pain
Due to the worst decision that I made
Looking long at the picture
It opens up long closed sutures
Hoping for a release
Imagining an impossible future
A bargain to the sky I make...
I keep on speaking, to the source of my faith
I keep on trudging with fantasies,
That I make
Conflicting parallels that I conflate
I keep on sinking, prolonged binging
As I keep cringing, I keep singing
A song of death
The only hope that I have left
Looking long at my situation
Only salvation, death or separation
If only thoughts, transferred to manifestation
It could be my lifes elation
A bargain to the sky I made...

© 2016 waking-life


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I absolutely love and identify with these words. Coming from a raw place, the intentions translate.

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Added on July 28, 2016
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Tags: depression, drinking, poetry, regrets, grief, self infliction, turning point

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Bobland, NY



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