Little pieces of my journal (part 2)

Little pieces of my journal (part 2)

A Poem by Matilda

Posting random paragraphs of my journal.

September 3, 2011

Dear diary, 

Lately I've been having doubts about love (and all that jazz). I know it's stupid for someone so young to be thinking about things like that so seriously but it's just ... well ... how do I know if love is real? Maybe this is a question that all of us ask ourselves at some point in life. Maybe, 15 year old girls as myself shouldn't be making such deep questions. However, lately I've been asking myself this question to the point where I can't stop thinking about it. So, where did all this come from? Well, one of my dearest friends (who is two years older than me) has been with her boyfriend (now ex boyfriend) since she was 14 years old. Some days ago we went to a party together and the whole night she flirted with a guy who seemed very handsome and he supposedly was very popular. He wasn't particularly nice to her, neither he was specially charming ... to me, he seemed like an a*****e. So, the night goes on and at some point I lost her so when I went looking for her i found her making out with this guy. I was shocked and upset at her. I really thought she loved her boyfriend (like, for real), and when you love someone you obviously don't even think of kissing someone else, right?! I thought love was like math: logical and simple. However, I'm starting to realize that I'll never understand love. It's not logical at all and it's never going to be. When she tried to explain to me why she did that there was a certain cheapness to her voice. I couldn't take her seriously. Is it that I take love too seriously, diary? Am I the one who is wrong in this equation? 

Sometimes I really wish you could answer back, diary. 

© 2014 Matilda

Author's Note

Did you have an existencial crisis when you were a teen? haha.

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My, this is quite a confession. Good for you your journal entries seem to have more substance than mine. Haha. But I like how perceptive you already are at a young age. Best wishes.

Posted 3 Years Ago

Beautiful truth. A common thought some teens have especially when forced to think about their future when only in high school. Nicely written!

Posted 3 Years Ago

I know exactly how you felt when I was your age. The only thing about the girlfriend is if she made out with the guy when she was dating him than she wasn't happy with her boyfriend (whether she admitted it or not). If it happened after then its rebound. Rebound isn't logical. Its pure emotional escape. Thank you for writing this and Im glad you think so much at your age :)

Posted 3 Years Ago

I loved reading this... the innermost thoughts of people can be very interesting at times. Love is not something simple and easy to understand and it never will be. It is just something that naturally happens in life. :) This was well written... loved the honesty.


Posted 3 Years Ago

Oh my of course I did, and don't worry, it isn't stupid, not at all. It shows you are an intelligent, thoughtful person. P.S. - the default font's a little small.

Posted 3 Years Ago

"I'm starting to realise that I'll never understand love" - who does? lol ! To me it's euphoria, pain, humiliation, companionship, a close bond unlike any other, but I'm a pragmatist and rarely allow the heart to rule the head and can safely declare that I have only truly loved (I think) three in my life. I am so glad you are giving more of your wonderful thoughts in these diaries as I really enjoy reading them. Penny :)

Posted 3 Years Ago

That girl was just being...never mind.
I've felt this way before too. When your friend does something and you aren't sure if it's wrong or right.
When you doubt your own ideas about something because of someone else. When you feel like nothing is making sense.
But I think it's part of being 15. We've all got to experience this at one point. Ya know?

Posted 3 Years Ago

I think it's typical of a 15-year-old. love, uncertainty, heartbreaks. but we grow up and learn our lessons.
sweet write of a teen girl.

Posted 3 Years Ago

That girl should have known better to that to her boyfriend you did a great job writing this poem keep up the great work

Posted 3 Years Ago

Being 15 was hard.. I was 15 most of 2010. Your diary is interesting. It's lame what that girl did to her boyfriend.

Posted 3 Years Ago

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Tags: journal, diary, love, friendship, life, drama, school, friends, teen



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