A Chapter by Debbie Barry

Written at Basic Training, a poem of confusion.




July 2, 1987


Why am I here? I ask myself that question many times each day. It is never out of my mind. I have no answers. When others ask me why I am here, I give them weak, half-formed answers. They are not the answers I need to find for myself, but they serve to still other questions, and they are certainly parts of the answer I need.


I am not sure what I need now. I do not know the answer to my own question, and I need that answer to be sure. I do know what I am doing. I am telling as much of the truth as I know. I find a new bit of truth each time I talk about it. The people who listen to me are sympathetic, but they weary of my question. I do not blame them. I do ask it a lot. I ask them to listen far too often.


I know what I will do. I will leave here. There is nothing for me here. It is difficult to leave, though. I no longer control my own life. Powers beyond me must help me to leave. I know already that they will help me. They are already helping.


© 2017 Debbie Barry

Author's Note

Debbie Barry
I wrote this when I was 18. It's another non-poem that I treat as poetry. Initial reactions appreciated.

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You sound very confused here.

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Debbie Barry

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Yes, I was. I was 18, just married, just out of high school, just away from home for real for the f.. read more
Wendy Seames Garner

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I was married at 17, too young. I didn't feel like there were any other choices available to me bac.. read more
Debbie Barry

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I'm glad, too. I made a sequence of life-altering, thoroughly dumb decisions at 17 and 18.

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Debbie Barry
Debbie Barry

Clarkston, MI

I live with my husband in southeastern Michigan with our two cats, Mister and Goblin. We enjoy exploring history through French and Indian War re-enactment and through medieval re-enactment in the So.. more..