Help For Those Who Want It. Forum Nightmares

It hurts. 

Real bad.

The bed-me thrashes about, but he's tied to the gurney. He screams and screams and screams. No one stops the test. They say, "Just a little bit more. Almost done, sweetie. You're fine, it doesn't hurt!"

Yes!! It does!! It burns! 
I feel like I'm in an acid bath! 
Stop! 
God, please stop! 
Turn it off!
No more, no more, please! 
Please! Please! Stop!!!

No one ever does. They just press the button again and again and my screams echo in the still darkness of their perfect masked-over ears and the fire courses through me like liquid white-blue lightning on a water slide into the pits of heavenly hell. 

No one ever stops. 

I beg. I plead. I even threaten. 

I slip into the sweet grasp of oblivion, but the fiery hell-knight of electricity won't let me go; not yet, anyway. 

Poke, poke. 
Poke. Poke. 
Poke! Poke! 

More screams until my throat is aching raw and my stomach churns with bile.

No one believes me. 

"You were hallucinating!" 

"You're a Schizo, no one cares about it!" 

"It didn't ever happen!" 

But it did. 

It was real, as real as you are, there reading these pathetic words across your little glowing computer screen or the screens on your mobile phones and T.V.'s using a gaming console to connect to the Internet. 

It's real. I do not lie when I say that. 

This. Happened.

And, so I dream, locked to that bed and I scream long into the cold nights and I wait. I relive that moment in the hospital over and over and over. What I am waiting around for, I do not know.

Justice, maybe? No. Not that wanna-be champion of the broken, the downtrodden, the lost, or the the starving masses. If Justice cared at all, something would have been done long ago. Then what do I wait for as I lay curled in a ball, tears pooling on my aching flesh as their trails of hot steam slowly evaporate into the glittering rainbows of daylight?

I thought you were describing Acute Trauma Craniotomy and I realized you were dreaming. It's a good thing that you found a way to cope with your nightmares. There some people with similar case as you but I forgot what is it called. It has something to do with vivid dreaming. Anyway if it gets worse you should seek medical help. 

well...I've been through sleep paralysis for too long...part of what you wrote, remind me of those episodes i had. a few questions...do you have difficulty with breathing during, or after the nightmares? are you aware that you're dreaming? do you feel pressure on your body during or after the nightmares? cuz if so...you're most likely dealing with sp. and maybe some other sleep disorder. sad stuff is...all that modern medicine can offer, is next to nothing. im glad you can cope with it, thanks to writing... but here are some tips THAT !!!MAY!!! i say again, no guarantee, but it MAY just help. don't sleep on your back, eat something lite before sleep, instead of food full of fat and protein. try some fruit, or whatever else. try a little meditation before you sleep, or prayers if you like. just to calm yourself down. don't be afraid of talking to real, flesh 'n blood people about it. fear makes it worse. i know, you're thinking here's Mister smart a*s, thinking he knows it all... but just try. none of these involve any drugs, or anything that could harm you. so it's worth a shot. good luck.

He mentioned someting about having schizophrenia and what he describe was on the spot. I would love to explain it in medical terms but I'm sure he's been told by his doctor alot. So its basically, his senses are all hightened and distorted causing him to feel like everything is a vivid dream. They can hear things that wasn't there. Its like being high on drugs, but in their case, for free. I was thinking that Schuzophrenia people are psyshic who have Psychometry or Precognition, making them hear things. But its just me, making things up. Anyway, avoid medication and try counselling instead.

Hi folks! First, I wanted to say thank you for the advice and the kind words. I appreciated it very much. Secondly, (and I know this might sound a bit strange) does anyone know how I can set up Writer's cafe to notify me when I get replies to the things I post in the groups I am a member of? It took a while to reply to all of this because I was not aware that I had gotten a response from anyone. I didn't get any messages sent to my email or anything like that. So if someone could provide me with the direction in which to look so I can set that up, I'd be most grateful. Thanks again for all the kind words, guys. :D

I think its in my account button, then options. You can change your notifications there.