the TRUTH

 

 

I cannot fathom

this reality

I cannot believe

this is happening

layer within layer

truth within truth

I cannot grasp it

I cannot receive it

and I don't know what I'd do with it even if I did

 

I don't know how to handle it

I don't know how to love you

surely it can't be a simple matter

surely this requires careful dissection and investigation

surely this needs scrutiny and you need to go on trial

you are lying, but I don't care about any of them except

when you lie thru your teeth and say

that you love me

 

there is no way

you don't show it

not like I do

I can't feel it from here

this means, you are lying

through your teeth

you are only going thru the motions

wanting to wrap things up and solve the mysteries

there is no way you love me

 

however

I do want to love you

and I do want you to love me

I think I can make it happen!

with clever words

and a few secret plots

and careful moves, like a good game

with strategy and intuition

and a few flashes of my peacock tail

I will win you over

and not only that

but mold you and shape you unto my own liking

down to the very last detail!

right down to how you show your love for me!

I am..

 

THE MASTERMIND!!!

 

mwa ahaha ahahahaha  ha ah

 

 

so where the hell are you? are you my way yet? are you speaking my language yet?

 

hello?

 

 

 

 

THIS ANNOYING MESSAGE HAS BEEN BROUGHT TO YOU TONIGHT BY THE LETTER A, the first and foremost in a long line of letters, the one who started it all, and the one who knows what she is doing, and the one who you should be thanking on bended knee for her gracious patience and understanding, the one who rolls her eyes with each new post, the one who looks at the calendar and wonders, how many more years?, the one who has you pinned and labeled already babe, there's no sense in trying anymore.

 

oh and thank you for the brilliant poetry, and I am sure that you will continue to birth many more brilliant pieces of work over the span of your lifetime, you are an artist indeed, blah blah blah. get over it. Turn and face the new day right in front of your face, make something happen, wake up!

 

 

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But I don't want to wake up! I want you to watch me some more! And if you want me bad enough, you come to me! I don't know how to swallow my pride with you, I can't risk it, you might see me as weak or something. So I'll be waiting right here, come get it, and you can just wonder for the rest of your life whether or not I really ever wanted you. I'm not stepping out of my comfort zone for you, woman. Sorry.