Serial.

Is it inability,

or disability,

that allows me

not to comfort?

Wizened lies

and alibies,

tell-tale signs

of coming hurt.

To cringe away

from a soft hand

and not enjoy

a brush of love,

I wish I could

express the pain.

Instead I hide

in the alcove.

I just want to feel

the way you all do

and open my heart

to someone alive,

These corpses

only give so much 

warmth for me

to survive.

Reviews

[KAOlmsted]

You're not alone in this, John...I can't tell you how many times I've had similar thoughts. I always thought maybe, somewhere deep down in my subconscious, there is something there that prevents me from seeking affection the way "normal" people do...I'm not a fan of cuddling, or holding hands, or intimacy on a deeply passionate level. Drives My Brit crazy at times *laugh* Just wanted to weigh in. I read this, and I related to it. Thanks for sharing it with us.

-kimmer

[Mucha]

Stunningly beautiful.

[Frieda P]

All I can say is that must suck. I can't really relate, being Italian, we're all touchy-feely, to the point where you get nauseous...but I get the deep connection part, depression makes it impossible to reach out to people. I doubt you're alone in these feelings John, I've been there myself. Good read.

[Akira Kodama]

I realize that this is most likely inspired and drawn from your time in the Marine Corps, though when I read this I didn't really have that in mind. At the end, it took a turn for me, possibly fascination with the dead and such, and only feeling comfort with dead bodies, though that was probably not your intention. This is a very good piece. It's honest and emotional, though not hysterically.

[John]

You know, I didn't really have the Marines in mind when I wrote this but since you're the second person to mention it, I'd have to say that I guess it was somewhere in the back of my mind when I wrote it. Maybe subconsciously.
Thanks for the review.

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Wow, that was really....hauntingly beautiful :D This was a really a nice poem, with beautiful penning and really upsetting emotion. My cousin is in the Marines so I understand (well not ultimately) war and survival. Fantastic write Woot woot ^^

[John]

thank you, kindly.

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welcome ^^