Day 1:Fitting In..

I look around.Its a new place.There seem to be a noisy crowd around.Not one face I recognise.Its a scary feeling-a lot like an ocean engulfing you from all sides.And your body doesn't do much to help you out.

 

Hormones-thats what the biologists call them.They are just synonyms for trouble if you ask me.and now are making it worse for me.There is this weird feeling in my stomach.Its growing upto my throat and I feel suffocated.I look around again.Room.Faces.The files in my hand..I'm sinking in.

 

I hardly believe this is the day I had been waiting for.Life had been so different a day back-so different and so good ! Its funny how life plays its jokes on you.A few hours-and its turned inside out.Even funnier is how the human heart works.A few hours back I was complaining about the life I had.I had a dream and a hope for a better life.Now all that is fading away.And all I can do is feel sorry-and thats one of the worst feelings in the world.

 

With eyes closed,the world is a lovely picture-mom,dad,friends,family..with every face you recognise,you just realise how much you miss your old life.

 

Ironic-isn't it?? How what you have is never enough!!..how the human heart always aches for more..and when you finally get it,more often than not at the price of things and faces you loved and lived for-you realise what a cruel joke has been played on you..!

 

 

Reviews

[Liza]

fitting in can be a blessing and a curse; you blend in so well with the crowd - your voice is overshadowed and not your own

wanting more is also a blessing and a curse; wanting is believing you deserve more and can attain and find your blessing within reach but cursed if that more you want is merely a behavior pattern and the more you get, the more you want; never ever feeling satisfied in wanting but in having or more so - in reaching but never getting.

[LadyNaida]

This is so true! Good write!

[cartera]

Now we move on.
Alex.

[Priyankaabhilaashi]

Simple and to the mark..!!!!

Good work..!!!

[Coyote Poetry]

Home is where you feel safe. I have traveled the world. I landed in the end 20 miles from where I was born. Good to feel peace and calm in a place you know and understand. Being a stranger in a different place is very hard. I like the chapter. A normal feeling for most people. A excellent chapter.
Coyote

[SINDE]

I can relate to this piece and the way you simplify it is remarkable. Thanks for sharing.