EVEN THOUGH I CANT SEE

battles through life

Shake away the troubles of another day, maybe things will turn out differently this way. How can someone love me for who i am? don't they know i was fucked up at the start of the plan? Im pale and not tanned. Im still breathing but a bit of me is dead, i just sometimes need someone to cuddle in bed. Like i said i wont bring it up again, but its eating me alive. Ill never be the same again. 

See my eyes, its a disguise. of how i truly feel . I wonder if it ever crosses your mind, you can not possibly know how i feel inside. Im screaming from the top of my lungs, out of anger and frustration, but nobody comes. Im a big girl now, iv fought the battles and iv won. And i know my story has just begun, but sometimes i just don't want to hold a gun, i just want this to be done. Your a beautiful dream that seems so unreal, im scared that im going to lose you all the time. I love you so much i still cant believe that your mine. After a year. God its gone by so quick my dear, more things are clear and more things are missed. But as long as i have you, i can cope with this. 

And i don't want the world to see me, because again i dont think they would understand. When everything is breaking around you, and nothing is written in sand. But ill always be forever, because i will always light up the way, even though i cant see my path, ill guide you to yours on the way, and somehow ill be strong and never give up but carry on.