code of highest honor

All my days i have followed the code
Live a good life, be a good person..
i have cross some lines.. but i paid my debt.
code is an honor i hold to the highest

I now stand in my world,
things are not the picture i hope it would be.
I received news that is heartbreaking.

There is only one thing i ever wanted in this world
one thing i know i can do.
its the worlds toughest job,
there is no breaks, no vacations, no pay.
its a round the clock 24 hours, 7 days a week.

Its one of the most highest honors, the most glory,
and the best job in the world...

Now i stand here thinking of my code that i hold
and wonder why i should continue down this route.

a promise of something i want most, then watch it
be taken away.

life is not fair my friends even if you stand with the gods
They pick your fate and you have to live with it...

my faith is shaken more then ever... for this is unforgiven

To be a mother is all i dreamed about.. now i am dreamless.

my world has just crashed in, and what do i have left.

Author's Note

grammar problems i know but deal with it for now, i might fix later... whats the point anyways right.

Reviews

[SquinklaPsyOps]

From here. "To be a mother is all i dreamed about.. now i am dreamless. my world has just crashed in, and what do i have left." The character in the story regrets having no off spring or the character lost an off spring.

[darkness*star1985]

character in this dose regrets having an off spring.. and also if dose have off spring will lose it in the second trimester..

[SquinklaPsyOps]

Ooh, that is interesting, wouldn't want to scare the character in the poem if it opens its door a little more.

[darkness*star1985]

This poem is about a girl you has lead a good life.. made some wrong turns in life but dealt with that life dealt back to here... she but her faith in god, and trust in him. and followed his commands to the best that one can... but it all changes when she found that yes she can have one the thing she wants most to be a mother, but found that she has a double horn uterus or heart shape, and that the possible of having a child to full term is unlikely and even to survive the the labor is at a risk... so the question dose she try and have a kid, how many will she lose, and she her own life worth the chances

[SquinklaPsyOps]

How difficult for life to arrive on earth, and then so many of the characters from the poems want to jump off a cliff.