Grown Up

I'm not a baby anymore.

I wish that my parents

would realize

that I'm growing up.

I'm constantly aware

of the mistakes I've made.

I know I might

make them again,

but everytime

I learn something

about life.

 

My parents need to know

that I'm fourteen,

about to be fifteen

in March.

I'm not growing anymore

physically.

My curves are in

My feet are long

My baby teeth have

said their goodbyes.

 

I think about boys,

Well, I guess they aren't boys.

They're men.

Like my really funny, tall

dark and handsome math teacher

from last year.

Or that vampire from Twilight

Or the blond vampire from Buffy

What about that Man of Iron

wih the gorgeous brown eyes?

Or the God of Thunder

with his big muscles and blue eyes?

Or his brother

the one with black hair and killer smile?

 

Hormones rage though me

I think about sex

all the time

I watch porn

and I masterbate

just to ease the burning

between my legs.

 

My parents need to stop

Stop butting into my browser history

Stop yelling at me

And stop looking at me

like I'm an imp sent from hell

to cause them shame and misery.

 

My urges don't interfear

with my daily life.

I don't do drugs

I don't smoke

I don't drink

I don't throw myself at men

I'm still their kind, funny daughter

So what the f**k is their problem?!

 

I understand

If I were them

I wouldn't want disturbing

Thoughts of my daughter either

But I'd trust that she'd

come to me if she needed

our guidance.

Otherwise I'd just

Not think about it.

 

All these things

They tell me I can't do

I swear the moment I'm off

I'm getting a tattoo (seven)

I'm dying my hair black

I'm getting a Facebook

I'm gonna get drunk one night

And I'm gonna marry

my twenty-six year old boyfriend

If they don't like it?

Well, they can just f**k off

This is my life.

They need to realize

I've grown up.

Author's Note

This probably tells you things about me that you really didn't need to know, but... oh well. Thoughts? Advice? All of this is true.

Reviews

[Mark Anthony Games (Hum..]

Review for Change the World Comp.

This is far more of a statement than creative writing but holds so much emotion and honesty that it is probably better than most creations on Writers Cafe. You speak of hormones and emotions that are new to you, remember that your parents have been through this and have in all likelihood made mistakes that they regret and are trying to prevent you from making the same ones. We can learn from the lives and mistakes of others so that we do not become a victim to those same regrets. We can learn from the lives of others in the same way that we can learn from our own mistakes. The value is no less in either option. If you parents were not 'hassling' you it would mean that they do not care about you. My parents had no real interest in me and the mistakes that I went on to make without their guidance haunted me for years and nearly killed me. I would have loved to have parents that hassled me. I agree it is your life and your mistakes to make and yes those mistakes will help you grow but not every person must experience the same pain individually to grow. A a society and a humanity we can learn, grow and evolve from the experiences of the group.

If you were to give a loaded gun to a person who had never seen or heard about the weapon before it would be incredibly dangerous. The emotions experienced during puberty and growing up can be just like a loaded gun, so there is nothing wrong with asking those who have already gone through it. Do not be afraid to seek help and support to get though it. Also do not push people away just to prove your power, ability and independence. I kept so much pain and emotion to myself that I became a slave to darkness for all my youth and young adult years. I was driven to suicide through loneliness and depression. Then I discovered the power of sharing and have been more open and honest about my life, emotions and philosophies. This led me to writers Cafe and eventually to run this competition to bring people together who are experiences similar concerns to help each other heal and evolve.

This writing of your shows you have a beautiful, creative, intelligent and cleaver mind so use it, do not rebel against your perceived restrictions. I grew up just wishing someone would care about me. You have that so do not throw it away as that could become your greatest regret later in life.

This is a fantastic write and I am so blessed to have read your words, be proud of what you have achieved.

[Danielle]

Raw emotion to the core expressed here....Nice!

[Asilem]

thank you. :)

[Danielle]

Your welcome

[rnuff]

Oh wow I really enjoyed this.

[Asilem]

Thanks. :)

[Ana Drake]

LMFAO!
Wow Melisa, wasn't expecting any of that!
But I loved it. Hard raw and honest. It's a great idea to live by.
Lol, when you said "I watch porn
and I masterbate
just to ease the burning
between my legs."
My mouth dropped, literally.
Your a fiery a*s teenager, with a bright pulsating soul, and I'm happy to know you.

GREAT WRITE!

[Asilem]

Yeah, well, see. I would never ever be able to say that part out loud like that. It's just here, in my writing I feel I can be free. And I can. I can be a drug dealer who likes flowers. I can be a teacher with a thing for one of their students. I can be a teenager who isn't afraid to tell people what she thinks, or wants, or dreams, or hopes. I can be myself. Thank you for your compliments! :)

[Asilem]

By the way, HAPPY NEW YEAR!

[Ana Drake]

Lol, Happy New Year Melisa :)

[Night]

...nothing wrong with being honest. Do what you feel is right in your own eyes God will take care of the rest....oh yea, better wait on having kids, they'll change your entire life...just saying...lol. Peace out, Night.

[Asilem]

... Well... thanks?