Left Defenseless

How could I begin?
Where could I start?
There's no words to tell you just how I feel.
There is no proof to the existence of love, but love itself,
and there is no doubt that this isn't real.
Because,
for once in the longest time,
this
is
real.
I've really been trying,
for you babe.
Never ever lying,
for you babe.
Holding back from everything that has the name or face of discomfort.
Hiding away under blankets, and behind doors.
Really, i'm feeling like i'm really now "spending" my time,
because if there was one thing I would buy with all the money in the world,
it's you.
I believe we could just watch these leaves change colour, and fall.
just watch things get old, and die,
but not us.
I guess a good keyword would be youth, perhaps,
but maybe it's love,
or ignorance,
or maybe faith,
or maybe we can sit out this forever 'til whenever,
and I will put care into each and every word I speak,
and I would gladly give up my sweatshirt to you when it's cold,
i've already given you my heart; my love.
Your smile keeps me warm.
I hope you know that I never have had anything but good intentions,
and that's all I will ever have for us, for you, for this.
I can't tell you how lonely it is on these cold fall nights,
everything but you turns to white noise,
and I get sick, and I get scared, and I close my eyes,
and I toss, and I turn, like a carousel,
and I think about you,
and I get warm, and comfortable,
and the spinning stops completely,
and ever since the day I met you the world beyond is just melting away,
and that's perfectly fine with me.
I want to wake up in the morning with my arm around you,
I want to kiss you every second that we're not.
I don't know but this feeling in my chest just always tells me that
it's never bad to say I love you too much.
It's been a good while now,
a couple months.
I can't tell if the days are longer or shorter,
because sometimes I count the minutes in my head so I can remember every second of cuddling.
I think the time we're not together just seems a lot longer, so even though we spend hours together
we spend days apart.
I never meant to feel this strongly,
I never meant to let my guard down,
but for you, I have no defense.
With you, I could see anything.
I can make memories.
I just want all this to be perfect.
I don't want to say anything wrong,
or make any wrong moves.
I don't want you to ever feel like s**t about us,
I don't want you to ever feel like i'm f*****g you over,
because I know that you're not,
and I wouldn't be able to either way,
because
I
love
you
way
too
much.

Every night before I fall asleep,
you are the pictures that my memory repeats.
The warmth of your face,
the most secure kind of place.
I couldn't wish for anything more,
and even if I could,
it would be just the time we need,
the times we don't have, but should.
I don't understand why the best things always have to wait,
but sometimes I feel like things are coming just a little too late.
I'm not going to lie, i'm enjoying our time,
but I just don't want you to grow into not liking me.
Sometimes I worry, and i'm not too sure why,
but I just couldn't stand it if you didn't always love me.
The thought of the suffering that would take place
would instantly take off the smile from my face.
I just hope you know that I mean it, i'm just trying my best,
i'm not going to let go of this feeling in my chest.
You make my heartbeat go fast,
you make me savour the fact as it lasts.
Never let this go,
and I promise you will not wish for the time back.