To You

When the voices without me echo the voices within
There is no safety in warm arms
They are so far from my cold skin
And cold heart
Because I have to fight the thoughts
That make me hate
And break me down
And my greatest fear is how
You
Deserve
The
Best
And I don't want you to see this mess
I don't want you to give up
Like me
I want to stand up
And be
All that you deserve
And I do too
And the fact that I deserve someone like you
Astounds me
To no end.
But I am too proud to tell you out loud
That I am so deathly afraid
To lose you
Of being made
A fool
Of being made
Weak
Of being
Human
And so I swore
I will fight
And no judging hearts
Will see me cry.