Addicted To You

The evils of tobacco.........I am determined to give it up, but fear it will kill me!

I wonder how will it be

or when...............

will it be awful, will there be pain

I ask myself every day

questions when will it end

I only have myself to blame.

I play this roulette game

hypocrisy of an education

addictive as angels to heaven

Incredible when you think about it

slave to cravings

slave by the hour

Bargaining chips of mental power

I kid myself.........give up

perhaps not

maybe tomorrow or next month

just a front

release me demon of my blood

then give me up!

let me run with speed

then let go of your need

I have people I love

oh yeah.....so give us a shove!

You entice me, oh you know it's true

with your clever little nudges

but don't you know... 

I'm on a budget?!

The only ash I see is the ash of me

scattered in ashtrays for my children to see

“What a shame” they'll say

Such a waste” they'll say

“I Agree”.......I'll shout, but they won't hear me

as I drift on rising curling smoke

I inhale

I exhale

filth

clinging to skin

within

I have asked for this

oodles of cash

stashed

Inside a government's bank

profiting from my dying lungs

why can't I see

its f*****g killing me

when I toss and turn

longing to be free.

Reviews

[NoneOfYourBusiness akaK..]

oh I do understand~ I've had a love hate relationship with nicotine since I was 12~ I'd quit for years only to go back~ a shi**y and expensive addiction~ but what sweet calm with menthol inhale . . . .exhale stress~ did you know nicotine actually alters the chemistry of the brain?

[**AngelicDemon**]

I really like the poem

[Emerald]

Hope you can get off it it's pretty hard once your addicted..but this is a brilliant poem I hope you stay around and I read more of your work.

[Jo March]

Beautiful. Brilliant. As a person who has never fully quit, I can empathise with you.
This poem was so very good.

[Orlando Furioso]

I sooooo wish you will do it cos I want you to be around for a long, long time.

[Seamstress]

This is great. I am not a smoker and made that choice growing up with too many loved ones with lung problems due to smoking. I don't want to go out that way.

[Sparrow]

I feel the same way! I love the bargaining chips of mental power line. I think that's how all smokers feel nowadays, we know we should quit, we've all been educated for years about the dangers of smoking. Maybe tomorrow I'll quit.

Good luck to you.

[mysterykitten]

Wow this is really well written. I love the detail and the deep emotion you express when talking about addiction!

[moonbeam40]

Bubo this is what all smokers need to read , I gave up the dreaded nicotine stick, it was a battle but I won, addicted to you is a priceless poem, I used to look at the cigarette, wanting to be strong enough to crush it to pieces, I would say your only a plant I and I am a higher life form than you, then I would look at myself with contempt, and say you weak fool. then light up, however the nicotine patches and the smoking clinic at my doctors surgery helped I am proud to say I conquered the dreaded weed in two weeks, Walter Railly,has got a lot to answer for.love Moonbeam xxx

[roy mccarthy]

this is awesome!
i know that feeling too well!

[imagination101]

Never smoked, but this piece has excellent imagery of the pain of addiction to cigarrets!