OCD is Not Particular

OCD is Not Particular

A Poem by Capulet
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Having struggled with severe OCD I want people to understand how devastating this illness actually is. It is just as shattering as any other mental illness.

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Here’s how it works 
It’s not that crooked chairs frustrate me 
or a book shelf arranged 
unconventionally irritates the hell out of me
I am not a fussy kid 
Nor am I fixed or conventional 
It’s not that when I wash my hands 
so they turn red 
Like burns 
I am doing it because I prefer to feel clean 
Or when I spend 2 hours in the shower 
I just have this thing where I really want to smell good 
I was never a clean kid 
I smelled of me after ten mins in the shower 
It’s not like that
what everyone thinks -
OCD is particular

My magic number is 8 
Although anything above that 
can hardly be bad 
But 8 feels right
Safe.
So here’s how it really works:
I straighten chairs 
and arrange bookshelves 
and wash my hands 8 times
and spend 2 hours in the shower 
because otherwise my mother will die.

That’s what my head tells me
My adolescent spaghetti head
Too busy telling my body to work 
it didn’t see the creep in the corner 
Slowly 
and meticulously 
Unplugging wires 
Unscrewing bolts 
Taking over 
until its too late

See, OCD is not particular 
OCD is DEVASTATING

© 2015 Capulet


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Thank you for sharing this. I have always wondered. I think I may have diet OCD. A lot of things I do are not logical to others. Thank you for letting me understand.

Posted 8 Years Ago


you're awesome my friend! No body can ever intend to work on this. the detail of this madness, intention & power make it rock!

Posted 8 Years Ago


I would imagine that people who are not exposed to it rarely think about what its really like to live it. It is out of the ordinary for most people so they don't stop to think about the variations of it. I heard the singer Joey Ramone from from the group the Ramones had to walk up and down stairs at least 20 times each. I've see people flick light switches numerous times. It is a horrible thing that takes over one's life.

Posted 8 Years Ago



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Added on July 8, 2015
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Tags: mental illness, awareness, OCD, feelings, mind, heart, learning, lessons

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Capulet
Capulet

Redhill, Surrey, United Kingdom



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