Im Lost Without You

A song inspired by C. Lee Battaglia's "The Blonde Girl"

I don't know where to go
Now
And I don't know how to smile
Tears always seem to make their way
Down from my eyes
Don't tell me this is life

Shattered thoughts and shattered dreams
Memories awaken me
Heart and soul now turned to dust
Oh
Why did you take her away from us

I loved her
She could see beyond my eyes of fire
I needed her
We would talk for hours and hours and hours
I kissed her
But then she had to go
And I didn't know

My best friend
The only one who thought I wasn't weird
I missed her
But know I really know how that feels
She was mine
But then she had to go
And I didn't know

I can't tell red from blue
Now
In my life of black and white
She was the only thing
That could brighten up a dark cold day
But now she is gone

Ghostly face and hands of bone
Sadly both of these are mine
No more feelings or emotions
Oh
Why can't she just be alive

I loved her
She could see beyond my eyes of fire
I needed her
We would talk for hours and hours and hours
I kissed her
But then she had to go
And I didn't know

My best friend
The only one who thought I wasn't weird
I missed her
But know I really know how that feels
She was mine
But then she had to go
And I didn't know

I haven't prayed since the day
She went up into the clouds
I haven't said a word
To anyone in this crowd
It's not fair
Why'd she have to go so soon
I'm blaming you

I thought I saw her face
Yesterday
In the window of a house
Her blonde hair shining like the sun
On a summer night
Her expression so polite

I tried to mouth a word
But the word was left unheard
Pretty day turned into to rain
Oh
And her figure began to fade
No
So I silently screamed
Oh
As the car just drove away
No
Curse that car that drove away..

Author's Note

After reading C. Lee Battaglia's story called "The Blonde Girl," I just had to write a song. This one goes to anyone who has lost a loved one. I hope you enjoy :)

Reviews

[barleygirl]

This feels true & real-to-life for someone missing another, thru death. The expressions are not always neat & flowing, sometimes reading is a little jerky or thoughts jumping around, kinda like our minds do when under extreme stress. This feels unedited -- gut-level -- almost like the person is wailing the blues here, feelings coming out just the way they come out. I especially like the refrain starting with "My best friend" . . . such an endearing quality: "the only one who thought I wasn't weird" . . . I can feel how this narrator is feeling lost & alone, with nobody else in the world who "gets her/him" the way the best friend (now gone) did.

[Cool Girl]

Thank you so much for this wonderful review! I truly appreciate it! :)

[Lizardo]

God this really really really touched my heart! I a long time a poem has caused me that impression...
This is really good Aless, what a poem you made here!

[Cool Girl]

It's more of a song, but okay! xD
Thanks, Lizardo :)

[Lizardo]

Fine, a song then, I found a good beat on it :)

[Cool Girl]

Haha, you're the best :)

[Lizardo]

You too :)

[Cool Girl]

Thanks, Lizard Princess! Really means a lot to me :)

[Lizardo]

I hate you xD

[Cool Girl]

Aww I hate you too!! xD