Get Better

I tried to put myself in someone else's shoes.

We should love ourselves they say

But how do you feel?

It's impossible to smile for a whole eternity

Not even if you lie to yourself

Sometimes the shadow of sorrow 

Flies over your head and clouds your thoughts

You can't do it any more, you can't lie

The truth is sometimes you hate who you are

I hate the meat around my bones

The dark circles underneath my eyes

That feeling of a second chin, which no one else can see

Sometimes you want to take a knife and just cut it off

Let it bleed

Because you'll be thin

So the blood doesn't matter

That voice scares me

I could do crazy things

Sometimes I feel the loss of control

It's wanting to sit in the front seat

I won't let it

I won't allow myself to be weak

The voice will fade

It will get better

Please

Get better.