It's a Girl

 

I’ve always felt unworthy of love

And you sometimes clarify that reality.

Deepness sleeps within me scorned,

Naked, and trying.

 

Spun like a spool of thread,

Dizzy with abnormalities.

I am a ruptured human being.

Unique in genetics sadness madness,

Hand sewn in my deoxyribonucleic acid.

 

Oh such a shame to waste good, clean, flesh

With insides a harsh mess.

Am I God’s failed test?

An experimental being alien to what exist now?

Emotions turned around and upside down.

 

Did he place my heart at the bottom of my feet?

So that I may trip and fall,

Get back up repeat?

 

Heart pounding flutters

Beats skipping tick tock clock

Ticking the words are sticking.

I will not breathe I cannot see.

I don’t want to hear it for I fear it

Will be the end of me.

 

Cry cry day days

Nights nights all crowded by memories

That will not fade. I feel as

If I have lived a decade.

Drenched in simple madness.