Suicide Note

Suicide Note

A Poem by Darruesh Eetraydes

 

 

Coming home deeply depressed

My soul knows no rest

I’m staring at my bible

And holding the cross that’s on my chest

 

My heart feels torn

Wishing I was never born

Devil poking his head out

Out of my closet I swear I see a horn

 

Shall I cut my wrists?

I ponder this

I have to go to the bathroom

Forget it on myself I’ll piss

 

Should I take this bottle of pills and drift away

Close my eyes and never ever ever awake

I starting to feel fatigued I’ll just

Lay down in bed and so it is there I'll stay

 

I just don’t want to live anymore

If life took a score

I would still be at zero

I want to slam my head through a door

 

I’m telling you this man

I’m sorry that I stole the your van

I’m going to take this rope

And just hang from the ceiling fan

 

The world is dying and still why not me

Please get rid of that I.V.

I’m can’t see through this blurriness but I’m still screaming

Just leave me be

 

I used to be happy but I have fallen into darkness

I wonder how many of the young and old thought this

You can go ahead and suicide is selfish

I guess you feel like that I am so thoughtless

 

I could go and take the gun from downstairs

Run back into my room and make sure the coast is clear

Put it into the inside of my mouth and pull the trigger

I’m telling you this so when you walk into my room you’re aware

 

That you are in a horrid scene

Nowhere in that room is clean

You’re walking upon my thoughts, ideas

And even my dreams

 

I think I will look into past before I bring the end

Looking into the photo album where should I begin

Thinking back on what I could have done different

I guess I could start all over again

 

Yes I feel reinvigorated

Feeling of depression gone and feelings of life wanting to be sated

Never again will I believe I am worthless as I was led to believe

Having suicidal thoughts? Are you ready to be debated?

 

I should have faith in myself because I know I’m reliable

I should hide this suicide note somewhere within my bible

It shall remain there as a reminder

That when you take your own life only you are held liable


© 2010 Darruesh Eetraydes



Author's Note

Darruesh Eetraydes
This would be my suicide note. If i ever considered doing it. Okay let me make sure to say that I'm to happy with life be ause I'm a happy person,but if I did commit it...... It would make it so creative that everyone would say damn he nuts lol

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Suicide..such a courageous and painful choice..
never consider using this note.. let it be a reminder of all you are.. good..


very well written...

Posted 7 Years Ago


Not bad, but you really shouldn't think about suicide. Other then that I like it.

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.


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Added on January 19, 2010
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Darruesh Eetraydes
Darruesh Eetraydes

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Yo whats up people! I'm a 19 year old class clown from Texas. I've recently gotten into writing and I'm trying to get better at it. I'm better at telling stories orally, but hey I got start at some po.. more..

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