Eternal Nightmare

There's something changing in your eyes

like something is not quite right,

I get shivers down my spine

not knowing what you think of me,

all I can do is just sit in silence.

I long to feel the warmth of your touch

but it only feels cold as stone,

all the voices in my head clouds my judgment.

I want to hold on to your hands

and receive the love I deserve

but I can just watch you slip away
and I'll still sit here in the silence.

I want to learn how to love again

help me find my strength

I cannot longer do it on my own

needing a hand to hold

ho matter what I say or do,

I just push everything good away

anywhere you go,

promises me you won't give up on me

because I'm so weak.

Can you look at me in the eyes

even when I want you gone?

please tell me you won't walk out of my life

no matter how much I may not show it

but I'm grateful to be by your side.

My demons are winning for now

but one day I will grow strong

until then I need you to be by my side.

I want to hold on to your hands

and receive the love I deserve

but I can just watch you slip away

and I'll still sit here in the silence.

Can you teach me how to live?

Can you show me how to breathe again?

This journey is not easy as you think,

my mind races and my heart dies

I cannot be alone with my thoughts,

but I'll hold on to the hope

of one day to break free from my torment

and be able to feel like myself once again

enabling you to trust me to be on my own.

I want to learn how to love again

help me find my strength

I cannot longer do it on my own

needing a hand to hold

no matter what I say or do,

I just push everything good away

anywhere you go,

promises me you won't give up on me

because I'm so weak.