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told him i’d rather have been physically abused than emotionally

because it f***s you up for life, sam

because i

cannot cannot cannot

say ‘no’

and every other word is sorry,

every third action a wince,

double checking that nothing is on fire

that my heart isn’t on fire

(sam, i let him leap inside of my body)

lucky lucky lucky

you’re so f*****g lucky we keep you

here in this

house

this home

this cage

because no one else

would

love

you.