smiling mask

A Poem by Elin Luna

I pretend to be though

When i’m actually so weak

I can barely stand

My reflection inside other peoples hearts

Will I be found smiling there?

Or is my smile just a lonely sneer?

I smile and wave my hand

It's easy to approach and to walk away

And if you ask how i feel

I’ll smile and say ”i’m happy, i’m okay”

That way you’ll believe that this is truly me.

"I want someone important to me, who can laugh and cry with me"

A part of me screams inside

But i’m too far gone to see

The good things anyone in any way could like about

someone like me

I never cry they say

I always cry ,you just can't see

But its not your fault

The fault is mine for concealing them

With this mask of mine

I realize that my mask is wrong

I should just let it drop

Shatter into many pieces

Let the world see the true me

All I ever hear from others who caught a glimpse

Of what lays beyond my smiling mask

Is that of a sneer and a evil laugh

Dark words that say, "wake up, you don't feel bad, come to your senses"

So even now, I'm hesitant

Afraid of everything

Afraid of myself

What if the way I am

Is secretly the way I want to be

Even if i would want to stay

I would only trouble you

I don't want you to see

This ugly disgusting and evil thing called "Me".

Please you have to keep pushing forward

Because even after I vanish

I will always watch over you...

© 2014 Elin Luna

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Jenkins Writings

Shatter into many peaces
-pieces

All I ever hear from other who have caught a glimpse
-All I ever hear from others who caught a glimpse

Dark words that say "wake up, you don't feel bad, come to your seances"
-senses + say, ... comma after say

Otherwise the poem is great. More true than a politician's words.