I've Grown

How i feel

Here in a hollow room thinking

It’s four walls throwing the thoughts back

It doesn’t seem to help

Just thinking about her

I have shown my scars

But she ripped them open

I feel like my head doesn’t work

Like my brain is gone

Why did she say that she still loved me

When suddenly she never meant it

I’ve grown tired

I’ve grown weak

My mind is gone

I was happy before her

Her disease made me weak

I protected her or so I thought

But suddenly I caused it

It was a foolish romance for her

But I still believe 

That she was everything I ever had

Well my friends laugh at me when I say

That I still truly am lost in her

That I am lost in her kisses

That I feel like dying

Would it really be easier

If I wasn’t here

I am still in deep mourning

I’ve grown tired

I’ve grown weak

I look up into the sky just wishing

Wishing for strength

The strength to keep on going

But it seems that my sorrow stops my strength

All I want to do is carry on

But it is so hard

I want to taste her lips again

Just before I faint

I feel it coming

The hate

But I still don’t want it

Hate just leaves me blinded

Why must I feel this over a girl

Is it because I’m not like the others

Or am I just more deep

Or is it just the fact that I might be insane

I’ve grown tired

I’ve grown weak

Author's Note

what do you think of it

Reviews

[OT]

again another strong one - you let your emotions fuel your writing which is what any writer should do!! you seem to have a common muse and theme rippling through your poems giving a sense of your type of work!! it's good!

[FallenHeroXx]

Thx All

[So Sick of Love]

Really good and sad. Great work!

[Angie Diane♥&hea..]

This was sad...I could feel most of the emotions in it. Thanks for sharing.

[Red Brick Keshner]

Oh the anguish of love and being loved or not loved in return. Heart wrenching write. Quite moving in its reading.

[Joshua Smit]

hmm... you really could do with using punctuation in your poems, the lack of it, both discourages me from reading ( even though it was actually quite good) and messes up the rhythm

[Roberta]

I like this poem alot, I can see the emotion put into it, and I love how it looks like the words have just spilled from your soul, excuse the cheesyness, but it's what I really think :)