sharp edges

i am a pillow, a disc of wood, a mirror, a smooth-glass charm. i am metallic and have been sharpened to razor edges.

if my memories were made physical,

they'd be a square of pillow when i was three.

too young to turn it over, for the cool spot

i drift, almost inhumanly fast, to sleep

(but people have to grow up sometime, right?)

 

if my memories were made physical,

they'd be a square of wood when i was nine.

weathered, beaten by unnatural forces

hollow--cut me in half and count the rings

(if you try to hold me under, i float.)

 

if my memories were made physical,

i'd hold a square of mirror when i was eleven.

finally seeing all the ugly parts of myself,

doing all that unwarranted tearing from the inside

(drop me in shock, and i shatter. bad luck.)

 

if my memories were made physical,

i'd hold a square of smooth glass when i was thirteen.

like the hand in the pocket, rubbing your thumb against it

to calm you down, i sit dormant and warm

(when i wormed outside, i cracked on the ground, and was left there.)

 

if my memories were made physical,

i'd hold a square of metal when i was fifteen.

can't see inside me now; i'm locked off and ready to fight.

my corners are tipped with razor edges.

(you run a finger down the cold side of me, and you are sliced.

rust stains will stay.

you bleed.)

Author's Note

this is kira speaking, not me.

Reviews

[Raymond]

Very well done, great imagery. I understand that Kira must give voice to these things as that is her purpose, but of course memories have no substance except how we let them affect or infect our life. We can choose the perception and look back..and forward without anger or fear...and find a place of peace without surrender...well in my opinion anyway...no charge for the psych lesson LOL

[Just Brooke]

Wow Trippy!!! I loved it! This is really unique. Makes the hairs on the back of your neck stand up.

[Lyzzy Redd]

This is really, really intense. Just stuff in parentheses really add to the poem. Wow. I've got chills, legit.