Wish

11-29-30 This is actually my poem.

In bed I lay

Wishing that is where I could stay

Locked in a dream state

Dreaming of things like our first date

 

Constantly dreaming of you

When everything didn’t seem so blue

Dreaming that you knew

How much I care for you

 

Dreaming that it actually matters

That you haven’t moved on to someone else

Dreaming that we overcame our problems

Dreaming you were still by my side

 

Instead I wake up to a constant ache

Like a part of me was ripped out

The better part I might add

Like God removed my rib

 

I wake up, filled with emotion

Wishing I could go back to dreaming

Cause tho it may not be real

You are still there

 

There to dance with

To go on long walks

To hold tightly in my grasp

To kiss

 

Instead, I’m bombarded with the reality

You want nothing to do with me

Thinking of me as the very evil you are trying to escape

Fighting me rather than with me

 

You moved on

Already pursuing another man

Maybe that is best, I had my shot

I screwed up, but I cant help but feel it is wrong

 

I pray and pray to be relieved

For the pain to go away

Pray that somehow things would be better

Day by day I miss you more

 

I want nothing more than to be by you again

To start over, to go back to July 20^th 2011

To start over, to cherish you as I should have

To be able to marry you

 

I wish I could stay dreaming

I wish I could get away from this reality

I wish I could go back and start over

I wish I never hurt you

I wish I never let you go

I wish I could get another chance

I wish I could prove to you why you fell in love with me

I wish things weren’t like this

 

I wish we could start over