I do not like the feeling

This poem is inspired by a poet called Savannah Brown. It has a few found parts as some lines are from one of her poems.

 

I do not like the feeling

I do not like the feeling of you

I do not like the feeling of how your body next to mine

Feels like a death sentence.

 

I do not like the feeling

I do not like the feeling of almost

Of almost death

Of almost love

Of almost sleepless nights

Of almost suffocating in your arms.

 

I do not like the feeling

I do not like the feeling of being swept under a rug

Like some sort of dust nobody wants.

I do not like the feeling of irrelevance.

 

I do not like the feeling

I do not like the feeling of being less than you

Of you laughing because you think you know me

I swear I heard them hiss

Like snakes hiding under the weight of their dysfunctions

 I do not like the feeling of their words.

 

 

I do not like the feeling

I do not like the feeling of you

I do not like the feeling of your skin stretched over your bones

Creaking sounds of decay

 

I do not like the feeling

I do not like the feeling of the universe being so vast

That we cannot shout into it

Because I have been told my screams can’t travel through a vacuum.

Why did we think to explore it when we can’t shout for help

When it inevitably goes wrong

 

Because everything goes wrong at some point.