Anxiety

A poem all about how anxiety feels to me.

Anxiety:

I can feel my thoughts run through the nerves of my brain

A thousand of them swimming so fast that my mind is shaking

In the skull that sits atop my shoulders the one that feels

Not only like a thousand pounds but like gravity is only

Working on my head while my body floats up as if it’s in space

Which I guess it is considering my mind isn’t, it’s so very far from it

This is where you find out when I reread what I've written so far

I can see the words fly across the screen in seconds

When I was little I could read 1,000 words a minute with no mistakes

I could run as fast as the wind because I loathed being slow

Now you’ve been warned if you dare walk in front of me

You better go at top speed or I swear i’ll run you over

The images in my brain can make me cry in an instant

Because I think the worst of the worst when it comes to situations

I am fighting as hard as I can because I don’t want to feel this way

But that’s what anxiety does to the lonely souls of this messed up world

It does have good side effects when it comes to certain things

Such as a hard working character and a kind stature

It also makes it easier to be a strong fighter someone who doesn’t quit

But being afraid of everything and nothing at the same time is exhausting

Saying sorry so many times even when it’s not needed because you

Feel as if you’ve messed up or that you are weighing everyone down

Hating yourself for not getting it right the first time even though it was asked a million times

But when it's been said repeatedly your brain starts having spasms and shuts down

While your mouth is wide open screaming because you can’t seem to relax

Now that I have finally caught my breath I can tell you what you should know

It’s something that is a continuous battle in my mind so when I don’t

Get something right or stutter or have panic attacks or start shaking

It’s because I am waging this overpowering war inside my head all by myself

So don't you dare say I’m sure it’s not that hard or get over it

Because I wouldn’t wish this upon my worst enemy

Reviews

[barleygirl]

This is beautiful & brilliant. I was directed here after reading your comment on Quinn's piece about anxiety. You said yours wasn't as good, but I disagree. I think both poems are excellent. This just goes to show that we can all write about the exact same thing, but each one can be a unique stand-out poem if we write it to tell our personal truth. This includes so many details that I never thought about, even tho I also experience anxiety. I like that you show the good & bad sides, becuz I'm a firm believer in trying to see more sides to many things in life & people. This is so amazing, I'm going to send you a friend request.

[Chris]

Hi. Nice "meeting" you. I look forward to YOUR "voice".