Can I?

A Poem by Isha

It's human nature to be want to be able to remain strong after a fall. No one wants to be pitied. But sometimes, just sometimes, it's okay to fall apart. To cry. To let the pain wash away.

Can I run away?
Can't take it anymore, can't stay.
It's a cowardly choice, I know
But everyone deserves to crumble apart, not be strong, for atleast one day.

Can I start all over?
Don't wanna be stuck in the same loop forever.
The cycle of hurt, feigned happiness, and hurt would never cease,
My facade is threatening to fall down if I take it any longer.

Can I fall into an endless sleep?
What good would suffering ever reap?
People would tell me to embrace my demons,
But what if my wounds run too deep?

Can I leave everything and never look back?
Would it be too wrong to want to get my stuff and pack?
I've reached my limits, I've crossed every boundary,
It isn't love I crave for anymore, but its lack.

Can I give up and die?
Can I ever get away from this thing people call life?
Even purgatory seems a better place to be in, right now,
Please let me leave, let me run away, unbind me, just let me stab that knife.