Missed-understood

Missed-understood

A Poem by HandsomeKenn
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My voice has turned red,
but I am forced to sing my life blue,
because this culture surrounding me
speaks in signs and punctuation
and cares little for what is said in between.

And now my mind turns to paranoia,
my feelings dismissed as melodramatic,
or as some pretentious person
who does not get his rocks off talking
about the same Goddamn things
over and over about the cents saved
by shopping at Kroger as opposed to Wal-Mart;


the process, never-ending

- an implied, subliminal thought that decrees conformity
to press us into perfect little gears so that our cash might flow a little faster;
it doesn’t matter the means, so long as we all have the same end.

But be sure to be quick and quiet about it, eh?

I’ve cried out for ears to listen, for reciprocate lips to cradle me,
“You are not alone.” I cannot be alone. I will not be alone.
There must be more to life than these meaningless words spat out of my mouth,
every f*****g one drier than the ones before, “What can I get you to drink?”

With every failed attempt to have meaningful conversation,
my apprehension toward sincerely engaging others grows a little stronger,
its grip a little tighter, it throttles my throat, No, she won’t care.

But whenever I do find another’s beautiful thought,
my engagement so strong,
my mouth so thirsty
to speak meaningful words;
I am too eager.

To be dead, how long? so that I might live for fleeting, breathless minutes.

I cry out to the world with streams of ambiguity
because if I spoke plainly
the world would dismiss my feelings
as being
uncomfortable.

And when expressing myself truthfully,
whether it be about depression, or anxiety,
or apathy, or history, or literature,
I am politely treated as if I have a disease,
a contagious taboo, that there is something wrong with me.

But there is nothing wrong with me;
maybe I just have feelings.

So, I lie in solitude,
an unyielding, deafening, loneliness
behind curtains of laughter
beneath bed spreads for two
besides these moments from after,
my vague pictures of you,
where I lament, never fully,


being missed-understood.


© 2017 HandsomeKenn



Author's Note

HandsomeKenn
Any and all comments are welcome. I am always trying to improve and gain other perspectives!

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This is so true. Sometimes we need to stay calm even if we are trembling inside...wear a smile and show the world that we are okay...stand and walk like we are not broken inside. We care for what people say 'cause we're afraid of being missunderstood...
But whatever depresses us, there is one thing or one person that keeps us strong.
Great lines and powerful ending.

Posted 2 Days Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

HandsomeKenn

2 Days Ago

Thanks for reading and thank you for the kind words!



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The mundane subjects people come up with can bore the hell out of me. But your writing here is more than that. I think we all search for something better but find it hard to get anywhere with our feet stuck where we our. The circumstances and people we have to deal with don't make our days any better.

I commend you for sharing your feelings. It lets many people know they aren't the only ones in a boat that seems to go nowhere.

Posted 13 Hours Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

HandsomeKenn

9 Hours Ago

Thanks! Sometimes these cathartic works are good for just that.
Thanks for reading!
This is so true. Sometimes we need to stay calm even if we are trembling inside...wear a smile and show the world that we are okay...stand and walk like we are not broken inside. We care for what people say 'cause we're afraid of being missunderstood...
But whatever depresses us, there is one thing or one person that keeps us strong.
Great lines and powerful ending.

Posted 2 Days Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

HandsomeKenn

2 Days Ago

Thanks for reading and thank you for the kind words!
This is beautiful! I feel like you took the words right out of me. The rawness and honesty...makes it that much better. Thanks for sharing.

Posted 1 Week Ago


HandsomeKenn

2 Days Ago

Why thank you!
This is definitely one of my rawer works in terms of form. Much of it is mess.. read more
Wow this is amazing! So clear and perfect word choice.

Posted 2 Months Ago


HandsomeKenn

2 Months Ago

Why thank you! I am so happy you enjoyed it. And thanks for stopping by to read.

Than.. read more
bella

2 Months Ago

No problem :)
I like the way you looked at others in the write then looked at your own self. Reactions of both in this crazy world. Labels fly around like s**t but mean nothing. We aren't meant' to be a duplicate mold of one another but individuals with our own diving quirks and all.. I love this..and the style your using.. Good Work.. :)

Posted 3 Months Ago



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Added on May 23, 2017
Last Updated on December 17, 2017
Tags: Depression, loneliness, serving, bartending, relationships

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HandsomeKenn
HandsomeKenn

Normal, IL



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Howdy, friends. I'm a writer who is still figuring out what he likes to write and, to be honest, I hope that never changes. I tend to write poetry, short stories (both nonfiction and fiction), and nov.. more..

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