Her existence

am I the one in fault?

my heartbeat is stronger,

my fingers touch my chest,

as my heart hurts, my soul tries to leave,

whenever I see you.

my love, I do not know how to act,

whenever I see you.

And I remain silent.

Then I hurt myself in the night,

with actions and words I mutilate myself,

I become darkness, darker than black

I choose to follow the path of pain again

I'm filled with anger!

I cut myself, I can hardly understand why,

I feel such pain inside.

But I want you to love me,

and for that to happen I must first love myself.

Thus, I promise you to try that as a start.

Author's Note

I hope I wont make you feel angry at me or sad.Thank you for reading this. Please let me know what you think.

Reviews

[Cobblestone Traveler]

I can definitely relate to this piece. Very powerful emotions in play. There's the anger of watching yourself willing succumb to the pain and the self-realization that something must be done on our end before we can consider someone else loving us.

Keep writing!

[Lenah Mehzabin]

Deep very deep ...the speaker here is so helpless that the only thing he might need is a soul 2 calm him down and appreciation of his existence !
I loved it how beautifuly u designed it with strong seeking of love , wonderful ! :)

[Lupus Kaos]

Sometimes you even know who that person is but still, can't have her close to you...it also hurts

[Lenah Mehzabin]

ya when you love some one a lot and never could tell the person ..I know how it kills inside ,horrible feeling