Dark

When they tell you to fear the darkness

Remember this:

The dark was so much more than they promised.

They promised an absence of light.

But it was alive when it came for me

And it was hungry.

It wanted every last ounce of light

That I had left

But I had very little

for the mediocre darknesses of my life

Had drained me.

I was broken

And my light was dim

But I was not ready to go.

And remember this too,

You go when you are ready

And never a second sooner.

So, I surrendered.

I gave myself to the darkness

And in return it let me live in it.

I let go of the fear in my heart

and panic in my head.

I opened myself to whatever lied ahead.

And it eagerly swallowed me whole.

It took every ounce of light I had left.

And yet,

I felt no different.

I was not hopeless or lost.

And I thought,

“This thing that they had so feared wasn’t really scary at all”

light had prevented me from seeing

The vast swirling whirls of stars

That the darkness held

Constellations not yet found

My Beauty in Their Fear

There is much to the road less traveled

But more to the one avoided in fear

For those who are afraid have

Often long forgotten what they are afraid of

I am no longer afraid.

I find comfort in its strange new worlds

I am the darkness

And the darkness is me

But I don’t shy away from the light

For without it I would never have found the stars in the dark

But,

Maybe I was wrong when I said the light

In me was gone

For when I gave myself to the darkness

So did it.

Maybe I was wrong too when I said

That I found things in the darkness

That weren’t there before.

Maybe I created them.

Maybe I created the new stars and their constellations

Yes, I think I did.

For I see myself in all of them.

My hopes, fear, regrets, and desires.

They became the stars I count at night

And as beautiful as the soul inside of me.

For I always had the light

But it was never enough

As long as I was afraid of the dark.

I could not see beyond.

Well I am no longer afraid.

And there is no force on earth that can stop me.

I exist in all time

On all planes.

Day or night

Light or dark

I am at peace with it all

For I have found peace in myself.

So when they tell you to fear the darkness

Remember this:

There is no light without dark

And both heads and tails

Exist on the same coin.