Fading

I wrote this forever ago when I was first coming to terms with my DID.

I am alone.
I cry in front of the mirror.
Of course I am. Who would stay?
I'm lost, drowning and holding on desperately.
It hurts so much more this time.
So much braver this time.
So much deeper.
And this time the lines are not fading.
I’m drowning, and falling asleep.
Who am I?

Go back. Back. Back.

I am no longer me.
I fight to breathe, to stay awake.
The only thing fading is me.
He makes them so much deeper.
He is so much braver than I am.
It hurts and for once I want it to stop.
I'm lost in my own reflection, no trace of me left in my eyes.
I'm holding on but I can't stay much longer.
I look into the mirror and I see it now.
I am not alone.

Author's Note

Written by Evie

Reviews

[Luissanto]

So beautifully written. You feel and experience every word. Anyone who has ever felt the pain of loneliness and that feeling of fading away can relate.
Thank you for sharing such intimate thoughts with us. You have a beautiful gift.