As I sleep

As I sleep, 

Push the knife in, let is slice deep to fix my problems.

As I sleep,

Rearrange my insides, so I no longer look human.

As I sleep,

Keep me breathing, but keep me feeling nothing.

As I sleep,

Keep me sleeping, make sure I miss everything.

As I sleep,

Take advantage of the permission that I gave.

As I sleep,

Swear that I chose this and I knew the risk.

As I sleep,

Let me sympathise with what it is to be dead.

As I sleep,

Let me know that  I will wake. 

As I sleep, 

I cannot be sure I sleep at all. 

As I sleep, 

I know they know, but I cannot seem to care. 

As I sleep,

Know I love.

As I sleep, 

Know I'm scared, more than when I wake. 

As I sleep, 

Know I fully intend to wake.

As I sleep,

I am not me, but a live experiment. 

As I sleep,

Let me sleep.

As I sleep,

Be there,

Be there when,

Be there if,

Be there when or if I wake. 

Be there.

Just be there.

As I sleep.

Reviews

[Aaliyah Grace]

You honestly are not as alone as you might feel. I have been there so many times in my life. I liked this a lot

[RuthlessMind]

Speaks about a very dark place in my soul. I wish the rhythm flowed a bit more. Overall this was beautiful.

[J.Sin]

Amazing! Truly amazing. So dark. So emotional. So far reaching into the depth of despair and longing. This piece is definitely going on my "bookshelf" for future readings. Bravo!