dream date with MrSobriety

 From these eyes so yet unsobered

Joe & Giovanni

The wire and the tissue paper

dragon on the wall

Rocking back and forth

Changing myself

Leigh had a hole in her

trousers

(pyjamas)

It all makes sense

but then

it

doesn't.

 

The digusting experience 

prolonging the exhilaration.

I wish I was so poetic when

sober

sober

sober

Or to continue a pathetic existence

of lamenting mistakes

over numerous

bottles

bottles

bottles

of wine

 

Then to be ashamed

but yet so

freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Who would understand?

I AM DISGUSTING

I rot and laugh and love and

LOATHE

all at the same time

and then cry

 

Crying's such a turn off.

 

Oh, how beautiful it is to

continuously write

continuously write

and write continuously

It's very important

write now

to right now

and write now

since it will all soon seem

just another routine

bad dream

 

But...

 

I will keep writing

and document my

pathetic tale

Or so I like to call it

Because to make a...

continuous mistake

for the same person

who then makes a similar...

mistake

for another person

continuously

And she is heart broken

For shame, we are all similes of misery

 

 - the clocks went forward that night.

I could not sleep til it was what I percieved

to be 3

1. I could not admit

2. I admit to love too soon

3. You love not I or seemingly anyone for that matter.

 

I could be the throw away toy-friend

(surely I am small enough to be the doll on your arm)

The favorite when bored

Desirable when you are drunk

And I am lonely.

 

No. I will not hug you

when I wish to kiss you

NO. I kiss your cheek instead

but it isn't good enough

I want you all for myself

for only half of me

For I love and then love not you

 

I will keep wearing my glasses

though I do not need them

-0.5 lenses work like a charm

so I can pretend to be someone else

and hate you

and starve for affection

it's going backwards

DNIWER OT TNAW I

uoy evol I I hate you uoy evol I I hate you

Pass me the wine.

I'm finally being who I really am

And I'm just getting started

 

Do you love me now?