Innocence takenA Poem by Lenny HartIt is what it is
Time laid flat of ups and downs ,
Of a boy once happy to a man whom frowns. Darkness took away his childhood fun. Now a man to tired to hide , to run. Face his demons he must do. From a happy child to man who stares at what makes him blue. Playing with his brother making dens. To man who scrubs but is never cleansed. Never able to trust a soul. His disgust at what happened has took its toll. Tears of confusion of who he should be . Inside my head only i can see. Yet no hate towards those who hurt me so. Time has past now , so long ago. God will judge us as he sees fit. Each day I move forward bit by bit . Revenge , prosecution is not for me to accuse. I am but one victim who was abused . 45 years old today I am. Some days are good , some days hit with a slam. I only share what my mind will let . Understanding of me is how i wish to be treat. Childhood days of playing out with friends. To a man who wants his head to mend. Answers I seek but nothing can repair . The empty numbness and despair. I see the room , i feel the pain. I look in a mirror and she nothing but shame. Sympathy is not what i seek to find Only understanding of child still trapped inside mind . I maybe awkward its my defence. Of hiding the truth the disgust, the stench. My world happened in a blink of an eye . I lived my life, i lived a lie. If its true only truth can set you free. Then i ask the darkness to please let me be. Time laid flat of a man whom frowns. Moving forward please ! more up than downs . The child thats kept inside my head. The thoughts that make me wish I was dead . It's time to try and let it go . The childhood memories in my head that keeps me low. Lenny Hart 3/1/2018 © 2018 Lenny Hart |
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Added on January 3, 2018 Last Updated on January 3, 2018 Author
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